I love you.

I need to change the tone of this blog for a hot sec. I need to throw away the calorie counting, the calorie journals, the scale, the gym, my running shoes, and all of my ideals for what I would like my body to look like.

I just want to talk to you. I want you to know that, no matter what your size, you are beautiful, and I love you. I love you because you are strong, because you are smart, and because you are special. You are all unique, and different, and wonderful. No diet, no specific way of eating, or running, or living, will work for all of us. These are very individual things that we need to find out for ourselves. Something I am trying to teach myself, actually. When I talk about Radical Self Love, I'm not telling you to turn around and love yourself immediately. I am telling you to learn how to love yourself again, and to learn that whatever way you are--is the way you should be.

The days your jeans don't fit, the days your self esteem is crap, the days you just want to curl up in a ball because "you can't do it". Those days happen, those days are relevant in most of our lives. Embrace those days, learn from them, but do not kill your spirit. Do not think that because you had a slice of cake that you are worth less than you were before. Do not think that because society told you to be a certain way, a certain size, that you have to be that way--bitch, you don't gotta change a thing- haven't you heard?

In my personal journey I do want to lose weight, but I do want to stress that losing weight won't make me a better person, a happier person, a more trustworthy or loveable person-it will not change a thing but the number on the scale.

I'm going to promise myself to learn to obsess less-even if that means taking a break from blogging, or from the gym. Weight loss/ Weight gain/ Weight in general- does not dictate who we are.

It ain't the size of your ass that counts, it's the size of your soul.

& baby, you got lots of soul.

I love you,
Mama

Radical Self Love...Pays Off

This week I demonstrated a lot of Radical Self Love, by letting myself have a few extra sweets, taking a break from the gym, and just doing my "thing". And...um...I lost 3 pounds. WHAT THE HELL?!?!?! PEOPLE! LOVE YOURSELVES! YOU will get the results you want! Of course I'm back on the horse again today, starting a new cleanse (it is not fasting or a diet. It's food combination) I will provide you with more details later today. But I just HAD to do a update post, I'm so impressed with the power of LOVE!!